I'd rather see it on TV

I visited Grandpa for the first time a few weeks ago during Memorial Day weekend when I came down with Mom.  It was hard because I had never seen someone so close to me laying in a hospital bed and creasing his forehead, trying to figure who people were.  I said it then, and I'll say it again, "I'd rather see it on TV."  It's so interesting to see the intriguing cases in hospital shows like ER and Grey's Anatomy, but it's different when the patient is someone you know, especially your grandpa.  The changes in the couple weeks between my visits was very encouraging, though!  When I saw him the first time, he was still trying to figure things out, like who Grandma was and what we were saying; now, he can speak more clearly and make jokes like Grandpa is supposed to!  He's becoming more himself now, which is great!  Grandpa is supposed to be sitting in his big green duct taped recliner wearing his yellow-brown house slippers, and making jokes and faces!  Seeing him yesterday reassured me that eventually he'll get back there.  He may have to work hard to recover, but he'll get there, especially surrounded by all the people who love him, encouraging him the whole way!  After seeing Grandpa the first time with Mom and Uncle Mike, I wasn't sure I wanted to see him again this time.  I'm glad I did, though, even if it was still pretty hard.  He was groggy and going back and forth between being awake and being asleep.  He was more aware this time, though, recognizing us more.  I also saw more glimpses of the old Grandpa too: snoring, chuckling, making funny jokes, and saying funny things - even more funny things now that he is on pain medication.  You just can't help but laugh at some of the nonsensical things that he says!  To know that we are all in this together is very helpful too: shoulders to cry on, people to give big hugs to, and lots of love!  We all missed him at my birthday party yesterday, but we all know that he's in very good hands, and he'll be back soon!  I still would rather see something like this on TV, though!    ~Sophie : )